two lifes to live(:

Hello Internet, 

i haven’t actually ever really given blogging a try & now having moved away from so many people that i was close to i have come to the conclusion that i should try actually blogging. since it is also close to my senior year & i will fall into a lot of stress i figure the internet would be a good place to let go of that stress & in addition my english does not completely die out! 

i will try my best to post every Wednesday..if i remember!

& so today i will start with what happened yesterday: 

at my school there was a choir concert & my best friend is singing in it. i went to support her because also her x was playing in the orchestra. in the morning i had gotten back my math test & i had gotten a B+ & to celebrate i brought a bottle of champagne. we were drinking after the show & listening to the orchestra. after the show when everyone was putting away their instruments i see who my best friend is hugging a friend of our. it wasn’t until about 10 minutes later that i realized that she was crying because she had come through to really hard break-ups in the past five months. & so after a while she went upstairs with another friend of ours & they helped her while i waited downstairs with two others. at one point the x comes down & asks me why my best friend is crying & i asked him if he really needed an explanation when suddenly i notice that this guy that was sitting on the stairs waiting with me is laughing. the x started getting really mad & almost laid hand on the other guy so i went between them. 
surprisingly i wasn’t mad at the x but mad at the guy that laughed. he had no right to do so. he does not know anything about the relationship that my best friend & her x were in, he has no clue about what has happened in the past months & still he was sitting there laughing at the x like it was a joke. 
i believe i know why he was laughing but i don’t understand it because he barely knows any of us. he is the new kid. i know it’s hard as the new kid but you do not get into someone else’s business in that way. i don’t care if you like the girl that is being hurt or if you are just doing it to get attention. 
i feel bad for the x he didn’t have to be laughed at. he rather needed a slap over the face for all the crap that he has done to my best friend but even for that i would pitty him because he has no idea what i happening around him & how many people he has affected with probably not even wanting to do so.
& i also pitty my best friend for the same reason. she is such a strong person &she has so many people around her that love her & that would give the world for her but still she let’s herself get pulled in people such as the new kid & gets wound up in all the bad things that happen. 
i believe that you should celebrate everything that comes your way & be happy even about the little things & when times get rough you should think back to those moments & you will feel that same happiness once more & all the bad things won’t matter anymore i feel that that is what some people need to learn

In Germany to get in a club you need an ID, a German ID.

So i got a German ID..but here you have to take a picture in which you are not allowed to smile what so ever!! 

it is sooo freaking stupid..i look like i.m on drugs in my picture now!! what is that!! 

the poor security guy is gonna wanna commit me when he sees that picture!! 

&i had such a pretty drivers license picture!! 

STUPID FREAKING ID PICTURES!!!

Last week i moved back to Germany 

and so yesterday my friends invited me to go to a club to show me a good time

till now i.ve always gone to house parties&stuff like that where i knew a whole group of people..in this case a barely knew anyone

so i get there&i meet up w. all the people that invited me…the club wasn.t open yet so we walked to the closest convenient store

everyone started buying their own bottles&then when we got back outside it started raining so we went back inside&sat down..we stayed there until the rain kind of stopped 

then we walked back to the club..inside there were about 20 people&when we wanted to get in they 1st said we had to be 18 to get in &2nd wanted to keep our ID.s 

so we walked into the city&sat down in one of the bars&drank&ate there

I WANT MY HOUSE PARTIES BACK!!!! :(